Running shoe

My life right now is like a running shoe
My foot's inside and the tongue is pulled tight
But the laces aren't taut enough, so I'll fall if I start moving

More thought with my food

I feel I'm being selfish so I'll convert to being self less
But in this time who will be keeping my own self interest ?
Passing cards, playing games
Lock a key in the door and press play
But distractions wont make anything stop
If life was so wonderful we'd all have a choice
But some make the choice to end a life
Nothing's simple but he said she's simply beautiful
It's all controversial and leaves us stranded
Double standards
Maybe the stars will come and save us tonight
Blanket our tired bodies working so hard to keep us alive
In times of trouble we look up, or down, or anywhere really
You can do a 360 and still be lost
And so far nothing makes sense but I have enough of it to keep making cents - Work through the dusty path
All these raised eyebrows are giving me wrinkles
And all of these odd happenings are making me feel old
Let's not waste time though it's all we have to waste
We could be gone any day, any day now
But no one really knows

Inspired by a dry night in front of the fire

Turning a little desperate
Faking a small kiss
Hoping it's ok

Looking over her shoulder now
Happens every once in a whille
Making it a game

Smile and give an empty laugh
Seems ok, you are in fact
Going to make it out of here alive

Baby rant for the blog

This whole year I've put up with people who just bring me down. Just because we're not in a relationship doesn't mean you can't emotionally abuse someone. I've grown because of you but for that I thank myself. I've learnt to deal with your negativity and let myself flourish in spite of the cruelty you bestow upon me. I don't care if I'm being self centered; sometimes you need to be. In this case it's only you and me and I'm fighting this battle for myself. Whats at stake can be replaced though I admit I will be sad to see it end. Leaving at the end of the summer is the best and easiest excuse to not have to see you, to not have to put up with your unfair treatment. You didn't even have the decency to look me in the eye but I don't even care anymore. These are your issues you have to deal with, you can stop being so selfish 100% of the time. I was there for you, I listened. When I had problems, you'd mock me. People react differently to situations and you never saw the agony or hurt I was going through. You brush off my problems and see them as trivial and insignificant to yours. I do things differently, I kept my morals and my integrity and apparently that's rare in these modern times. You consider my decisions juvenile? I see them as mature and full of self respect. You say you don't judge? That's a lie. We all do, it's human nature. But the difference between the two of us, I accept people's decisions as their own, I let them be. I've grown to accept my own faults and try to work with them. "found the flow". I smile at you but one day you'll see not everyone is as forgiving. Good luck out there.

A little Friday blurb

Life is becoming very exciting. So many wonderful, new things are occurring and I couldn't be happier ! Even though high school is soon behind me, my experience has been unforgettable and I truly wouldn't change a thing! With summer approaching a whole wave of beginnings is upon us! The sun will be a constant reminder of all that we have to be thankful for now and in the future . A few more Fridays and the Elgin Park chapter of my life will have come to a close. I am ready to become a real person !

A Tuesday Poem

She cracks and fades on windy days
She will smile brightly at the sun
And the twinkling stars are to her a blessing
And she counts each one

When winter comes, the cold she embraces
Runs with the pack, like she's one
Then the dawn will try to save her
So pure as light she's gone

And she'll be alright alright alright in the end
But that's all she'll be
In the end


Don't try to hard, life will get you down
Be warm to strangers, don't expect a return
Because this world is what you make it
But It'll be alright in the end


Try for me to stay awake
Don't slip beneath the dark layers of pain
You've built yourself so tall so tall so tall
But you see it'll be alright in the end

this again

It sucks when you treat people so kindly, so considerately
accept their mistakes yet they continue to treat you like nothing.
Like an insignificant piece of paper scattered amongst a messy desk that is life
Seeing you as  merely an option that they scroll past
A crumb to a slice of pie, a memory in the back of their mind
And even when you try to accept their actions, you can't help but feel down 
and a little bit more broken
But you still paint a smile on your face everyday, as to not cause anyone worry, 
because you don't want to be a burden .